I Still Hate My Class

I went to school activity this morning. Honestly, boys in PBSM is getting lesser and lesser. For the entire form 4 only 7 boys are active, a pathetic number that mirrored how uninteresting PBSM is getting. Anyway, after the activity, I was zonked out, and I slept hour for 2 hours in the afternoon.

When I woke up, I found myself in a daze, unable to think things clearly. Probably it's the natural thing, but somehow I felt uncomfortable in that kind of state.

It had been a week, and my hatred to my class was getting stronger and stronger, like a kerosene lit by fire. My classmates were so hardworking, so quite, so boring, so geeky. The boys enjoyed talking about comics, manga, and computer games. The topics they discussed were Spanish to me. I didn't understand whatever they were talking about.

My Add.Maths teacher had begun to teach, and my classmates was bewildered by her teaching. The problem was not the teaching, but the explaining. Her explanation got us completely dumbstruck and we just sat there with out minds circling and mouth agaped. Nonetheless, I understand later.

Friday, after the routine assembly, my legs were numbed. The principal had so much rubbish to dwell upon, and we just stood there listening to his rubbish while bantering with friends.

All of the PMR candidates who got 8As in last year's PMR were about to be photographed. It's actually the another way of saying we are taking RM4 from each of you for your photograph.

Physics have me totally frustrated. I'm on the brink of psychotic now, while scribbling on the paper written full with different answers I have calculated. Biology have me totally keyed up, and somehow memorisation isn't that difficult. I haven't started Chemistry, yet, while I'm focusing on improving both my Malay and Chinese.

I hate my class so much!! I never hate a class like this before, and I know deep in my heart I have to do something in order to make sure the history doesn't repeat by itself. Why on earth that it seems that I'm the only one who is not satisfied with my own class. I'm really annoyed, really frustrated, really hoping and desperately want to change my class. I have never been so lonely in my class, 80% of my friends are in 4S6. Chin Seng, Wee Chin, Yong Shuan, Song Wei, Lawrence, Derrick, Adwin, Zheng Jia........I want to be in the same class with them!! Not in a class like mine this year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate 4S3

I hate studying in 4S3 so much!! I want to study in 4S6!!

I felt myself pressurised by classmates because all of them are great students. Hard-working, paying attention to what the teachers say, listening to what the teacher says and follow the orders blindly. Although a few of them are talkative, they are not my 'type' of friends as their interest is dissimilar from mine. They enjoy talking about comics, manga, computer games and which to me, a complete gobbledygook.

A was selected to be my class monitor. He refused, and his refusal was ignored. He was looking glum, sombre, and then, abra-cadabra, he was no longer my class monitor. Instead of a boy and a girl, this year two girls are my class monitors. Boys have to compensate for something--physical work. As they are girls, teacher hopes that we'll help them doing works that involved strength.

Anyway, I haven't assimilated into the groups of girls. I have known most of the boys, I guess I have no problem communicating with them. Girls, on the other hand, keep everything to themselves and started studying as tomorrow is examination that determines their fate, once fail and you are dragged down to hell where you suffer for ten months and weeping and weeping and studying and burying yourself in books until you get a satisfactory result.

My Add. Maths teacher came into my class and horrified all of us with a preamble about add.maths. She spooked us about the difficulties we were about to stumble upon, and half of my class were scared out of wits. My Modern Maths teacher stepped her foot in my class, and recognised 10 students who she taught last year, including me.

My Malay teacher was good in talking nonsense. He spent 2 lessons to explain the SPM format. My English teacher is an infamous slacker. My Chinese teacher was good, and she knew my name already. My History teacher is Mageswaran. I don't know what am I about to face. I just face it.

My PJ teacher is about to torture us. He said he would test our physical, and we would have two months to endure...............fine, you want to challenge us? Come and challenge us!

4S3

The first day of me going to school in 2010. I woke up around 6.20am, still labouring to keep myself awake, ate my breakfast, bathed and went to school.

It's a new year, which means I will be studying in a new class. This year I am selected in 4S3.

I haven't chummed up any friends yet. I had received my timetable. And guess what? Pn. Ong Swad May is going to teach me Maths again....haiz.......

My class teacher, Pn. NPL is teaching us Chinese. We were briefed with the changes of SPM chinese, and the changes had us totally dumbstruck. The questions that are about to ask in SPM 2011 are worse than preposterous. In fact, it is indescribable. Why have they brought it up to the mountain and makes people feel like giving up? I felt like giving up learning Chinese, but I know I can't.

Anyway, my english teacher is an Indian teacher. Her name is Pn. Lata, lata in chinese means unkempt. Well, I guess she does have a weird name. She is quite friendly and great in socialising. Good for her.

Pn.TPS and Pn. CSB will be teaching me Chemistry and Biology respectively. I have heard of their names, and I guess I'm about to have a good year.

Last Day

Today is Sunday, the 3rd of January and also the last day of our school holiday, although three states have started their schooling today. Anyway, it's the last day I can enjoy sleeping and slacking, and I don't want to waste it. It's way to precious.

Afternoon we went to Queensbay Mall, Penang. The traffic this afternoon was one of the worst I had experienced. My mother motored up until the top floor. When I mean top, I mean rooftop. And my mum couldn't decide where to park her precious car. She was afraid to park her car at A, because it was far from the entrance and if it rained, we would've soaked. She was afraid to park her cark at B, because it was right at the junction and cars could have banged the car easily. Blah.

I had toasts at Old Town White Coffee. Not as lunch, it wouldn't be enough for me. I'm a good eater. The toasts weren't delicious, I don't think I would order it again.

Then I went to Popular. The queue was so long. Most of the people were there to buy books for their new year in school. They offered 20% off for all reference books.

And then I realised many married couple there are of different races. A foreigner, someone from Europe, married a local Chinese and have kids. Have you seen the newspaper? A British woman enrolled her daughter in a chinese primary school here, and of course I'm sure her daughter will be fluent in chinese. Never underestimate the importance of Chinese. Foreigners are learning chinese, I guess we have no excuses to quit learning.

Well, I guess I have got to go. Meet you guys tomorrow in school.

Midnight Sun

A brand new year. Today is the first day of 2010, fresh air, fresh year, fresh textbooks, fresh homework....haiz...

I just came back from Prangin Mall. The Mall was crowded like hell. Way too many people were there to welcome the new year. Anyway I bought two DVDs, Alvin and the Chipmunks and Sweeney Todd.

Then we went to Komtar Walk. Remember Komtar Walk? The completion of the 'walk' was published in the newspaper and they are expecting more visitors there. And guess what? Komtar Walk is boring, hot, and looking abandoned. The most thing that shocked me was: Georgetown White Coffee!! This shop shares the same logo, same tables, same chairs, same paint colours, only different words. Instead of the normal "Old Town White Coffee", this is "Georgetown White Coffee".

Well, it's Friday, two more days later I have to go to school.

Oh...by the way, have you heard of Midnight Sun? The book is retelling the story of Twilight, but this time, it is written from Edward's point of view. It's currently incomplete, but go have a look:

http://stepheniemeyer.com/pdf/midnightsun_partial_draft4.pdf

I'm Obedient, That's Why I Do This

Tagged
1.被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
2.請老實的回答每一個問題。
3.不行擅自塗改題目。
4.寫完請點8位朋友，不可不點。
5.點完後請通知那8位朋友他被點到了。

個 人 題 - 10 題。。。。
01.你叫什么：佳安
02.你的綽號：目前没有
03.你的血型：B
04.你的星座：不知道
05.你是男還是女：男
06.你幾歲：15
07.你住哪裡：大山脚
08.你現在的學校 ：日新国民型中学
09.你有沒有手機 ：没有
10.承上，那是多少：什么来的？

朋 友 題 - 10 題.
11.你最要好的朋友（限１個）：公平起见，谁都不是
12.你最討厭的人（限１個）: 赵俊杰（目前）

情 題 - 10 題。。。。
13.你有沒有喜歡的人： 目前没有
14.如果没有，你希望什麼時候有另一半: 看命运的安排了
15.到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過 : NO
16.到目前為止，你被多少人告白過：没有
17.到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋友：都没有
18.你現在有另一半嗎 : NO
19.你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣: 感到惊讶
20.你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎: 我的初恋是电视明星...她不会跟我告白的
21.你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人：感情是培养的，我也不会回答
22.你和另一半牽手過嗎：我连妈妈的手都没有牵过～～
23.你和另一半抱或親過嗎 :我连爸爸都没有拥抱过～～
24.你跟異性牽手過嗎: 有啊，无聊红新活动的时候
25.是誰，你們什麼關係：朋友
26.現在有人在追你嗎 : 我希望有.............

混 合 題 - 10 題
27.如果有天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣：找他
28.如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你會：感到生气
29.如果有天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了，你會：找新朋友
30.如果你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎: 不会，没有钱出去不能生存
31.你上課認真嗎 ：除了华文和美术，基本上都很认真
32.你功課好不好：中等
33.你开电腦都在幹麻 : 看电脑
34.你的即时通有多少个同性: 不知道
35.你的即時通裡有多少個異性：不知道

兇 手 題 - 10 題。。。。
36.傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：蓝嵘耀
37.这個人對你好不好 : 还好
38.這個人是你的誰 : 朋友
39.你有喜歡過這個人嗎 : 虽说有好感，但是没有喜欢的程度。
40.你們認識多久了 : 一年半吧？
41.這個人是怎樣的人 : 乖
42.這個人正／帥嗎 : 还好啦
43.這個人跟你有沒有在一起过 : 最好没有
44.萬一你喜歡這個人，你會怎麼办 : 我会尽力地捏自己以结束这个恐怖的梦

聯 想 題 - 10 題
45.說到正妹你會想到誰：不知道，目前没遇到一个
46.說到帥哥你會想到誰：不知道，目前也是没有遇到一个
47.說到憨你會想到誰： huh？
48.說到痴你會想到誰：罗思荣
49.說到暗戀你會想到誰：林xx...她暗恋我的朋友两年了
50.說到出去玩你會想到誰 : 李祖敬
51.說到聰明鬼你會想到誰：陈耀淇（名字写对吗？）
52.說到傻子你會想到誰 : 傻子
53.說到笑點低你會想到誰：不知道
54.說到愛笑你會想到誰 : 沈勇捷，没笑还没关系，一笑不得了。

學 校 題 - 11 題。。。。
55.你的班導是誰：Pn. Ong
56.你的座位是第幾排第幾個 : 第四排
57.你最喜歡的老師是誰：太难选了，干脆不选
58.你的英文好嗎：烂
59.你的體育好嗎：田径上我曾认还好，之前sukan tara我得到6分。^^。球类我只会打羽球.....说到打羽球......
60.你的数学好么：烂，已经腐烂成..不知变什么了
61.你喜不喜歡你的校長：不说，免得没日子好过
62.你的學校好看嗎 : 我只看到白色的漆。
63.你的班級是：开学就是4S3
64.你的班級在幾樓：三楼

Congratulations! You're tagged.恭喜以下的幸运儿
张子意 Cheang Chee Yee
连俊杰 Heah Jun Jie
何欣惠 Ho Xin Hui
何欣茹 Ho Xin Ru
李紫薇 Lee Zi Wei
陈祖庆 Tan Ju Kheng
蔡俊杰 Derek Chua
陈玮平 Tan Wei Ping



Ps:
子意，拜日不能打球，3A2的那两个不能，人数不够，所以下个的下个拜日打球怎样？我会去问那两个人。^^
尽快给我回复。tq

Cheers

Just came back from a friend's blog. X is sad that Xdidn't get 8As in PMR. The way X describes his/her feelings was specific, and the emotion was strongly felt by me. You can call me sentimental, but I guess I am.

PMR isn't everything. Initially, weeks before I hold the paper stating that I get 8As in PMR, I was sure I couldn't get straight As. My emotion was disturbed, many emotions had mixed together and I couldn't point out what emotions I was feeling. In PMR, I had made serious mistakes in both BM and BC.

You know what came next, I was sad, disturbed, broken. My tiny little heart was as fragile as a glass, and it was smashed with a force so enormous that I had never imagined. However, after days, I felt like that was nothing to be sad. So what if I didn't get 8As? So, I lived happily after the few days, until the day PMR result is out.

I felt nothing. PMR getting 8As to me, felt like nothing. No sadness. Just a little happy because what I had studied in 3 years had not wasted.

So what with 8As? It's just PMR. Without a SPM certificate, what job can you find outside? PMR is nothing. It only shows you what you have learned so far, what have you accomplished in 3 years time. SPM determines you fate, it is your lead to your dream, your route to your triumph.

So cheer up. You think your fate is changed? Yeap...your fate might have changed, but you have two years to change it back to what you want. Two years is a limit. Don't waste it.

Well, I guess I have been too emotional......

Anyway, it's December 31, 2009. The last day of 2009. I guess this is the last post this year. My hands are shaking, stopping writing now.