Three Months

Three months have gone. Well, almost gone. It is just incredible how I whine about how time creeps slowly in the 2 months after SPM, but now complain how fast the time moves after getting a job.

This 3 months are probably the turning point of our lives. The impact it has on us is huge as we all begin to separate and move our own ways.

Some have gone overseas to study, immense themselves in a different culture when their exposure to it leads them to a completely different world where they could experience things that are not found in Malaysia. Some may not have gone to a foreign country, but have begun to study A-Level in local colleges. They have started attending lectures, ploughing through thick books, burning the midnight oil endeavouring not to sleep in order to decipher lots of seemingly unfathomable questions. Some have begun to work, and are complaining the obnoxious treatment they received, the terrible encounters with their clients/customers, lamenting on how tiring their works are, or castigating their bosses for picking on them, observing them or breathing down their necks, or sharing the mirth they have, the experience they gain, et cetera.

For some people, they have just opened the door to the outside world, where their ignorance was immediately thrown away by the astonishing outside world, where nothing is as peaceful, easy or happy as it appears. For some, their worst fear was realised when they were forced to join PLKN, and they did reluctantly after going berserk for weeks, but then eventually came back with joy and kept sharing the happy memories they share with their friends they chummed up in the camp, singing about how happy they were and nothing could ever replace that extreme happiness in their lives, and the 3 months was the happiest time in their lives for the past 18 years. For some they have looked forward to it with great enthusiasm, and their wish finally came true when they first boarded the bus to their destination.

So how have you used your three months? Did you treasure it by doing what you ought to do? Did you use it to study so that your future will bring you to something that glares brilliantly in the new era that will be coming? Did you use it to experience something you never have possibly imagined to have, and then learnt something you know will come in handy in the future? Did you spend that three months gathering your past 17 years into a piece of work by collecting the tiny pieces of memories that are wildly scattered in your mind, so that when you intend to recollect the happy moments you are able to do so with ease? Or did you use the three months doing nothing, sitting at home watching the time ticks, playing computer games, or brooding or constantly sink deep into reverie where you let your imagination runs freely and imagine what is not going to happen in the actual world?

In this 3 months, what have you learnt? Have you learnt to be tolerable with unpleasant things? Have you learned to be autonomous in dealing with tricky situations? Have you realised what you love the most in your lives, and subsequently found what your interest actually lies at and have then discovered what you actually want to do? Have you undergone some mental growth after being challenged many times for things that you know you are incapable of doing but is unfortunately required to do? Have you received any great impacts in your live where your emotion is hit strongly with a force so strong your brain has nearly smashed? Have you found a treasure that has been hidden discreetly in your live and have finally uncovered it after a careful search and receiving guidance from someone who has washed you with love? Have you thought that the past three months was actually the greatest opportunity that hardly befalls anyone and you spend it at home doing what you like the most without having the slightest notion to move out of the house? Or have you experienced a great misery that has severely altered your life so much you feel the malevolence has critically obliterated your life into nought and that and the zeal and passion that burn intensely in you have been put out and you feel your life is only a piece of darkness that means nothing more in your life?