Best Quote to Describe Me

"You want someone to be in your life so bad, but you're so used to being alone, so when someone has become a constant in your life, you push them away."

One sentence summarises me. 

Step Dave

I was watching Criminal Minds when I got bored of continuously watching only crime drama. I have always wanted to listen how New Zealand accent sounds so I googled for New Zealand TV series, and wikipedia gave me a long list which I was reluctant of checking one by one, so I simply tried out the first series available on the list.

It was Step Dave. It was a family-centred drama featuring a 24-year-old who fell in love with a 39-year-old mother of three. That age gap is intriguing and something I do not think American or British drama have tried exploring. This kind of story line is rather common for Asian dramas though.

I tried watching the first episode, and immediately fell in love with it. It's awesome! The story line is great, the New Zealand accent is enchanting (easier for me to catch if compared to Australian accent), and the characters are endearing and interesting! Watching how these two lovely couples gonna survive the troubles they have to go through to get acceptance and pull through from societal stigma is going to be very interesting.

New show for this semester break!

蒙面歌王 King of Masked Singer

I chanced upon this singing competition few months ago and I immediately fell in love with it.

I have long abandoned Chinese entertainment industry and thus have no knowledge of any quality, new or famous Chinese singers in the market now.

Maybe I know some from Taiwan, but I definitely do not know a single one from China because they appear to not exhibit interest to market their albums in Malaysia. After all, selling their albums in China alone is more than sufficient to garner incomes to feed generations.

So imagine my excitement when I watch so many quality masked singers singing on stage, and have absolutely no idea at all who they could possibly be.

One of them, 野草 (wild grass), is my favourite. She is definitely the best singer among all of them, and she is now my newest idol.

Not to discredit other singers or say they are inferior, but 野草, who is actually 谭维维, is obviously the best, and one who captivates the audience the most.

Here are some of my favourite songs of hers:



She combined two songs into one.



Try listening to the original version. She modified the song and she covered it very well.

And damn those through this video you can actually tell this lady has what it takes to be world famous!



If you are wondering whether she could sing without trying to "show off", well, this video tells you she could.

She has other great songs as well. 三十岁的女人 (30-year-old woman) is nice. She sang it well, and it was the first song I heard from her that actually made me like her. She covered 映山红 very nice too. Not many singers can make me like all of his/her work whatever he/she sings.

Among other songs I like from the show:



By 黑天鹅， whose real name is 丁当， a Taiwanese singer.



By 追着光阴奔跑的罗拉，who is actually Gigi Leung from Hong Kong (梁咏琪).

Her previous two performance were weak comparatively to other singers, so I admitted I wasn't looking forward to her singing. But this song blew my mind away.

I was wrong. This lady could sing too. And boy, she is a great artist too. I was really, really wrong and terribly misjudged her.



The youngest artist in this whole competition I believe, but one of the best.

It's 张玮, a singer from China.

Religion

Officially, I am a Buddhist. Unofficially, and in real life, I profess no religion.

And I am not a person that could profess one easily. So forget about trying to cajole me into Islam, or trying to proselytise me in a Church.

Why do I choose not to profess a religion?

First of all, let me clarify something: I am not an atheist. I am simply a free thinker.

I believe in the existence of God, but I prefer not to choose a God to be dedicated to.

There are so many religions out there. How do you know which God brought you to Earth?

How do you know which God is the one who created Earth and created living beings?

I do not know. So unless I have a clear knowledge of which did it, I decide to take no side and stay neutral so that every God gets equal credit.

Okay. This may be a lame excuse.

Main one is this.

As mentioned, I believe in the existence of God. I acknowledge that I am His creation.

Most people pray to their God to receive guidance. They ask for His help to seek for direction, and to be bestowed strength to persevere in daily struggles.

I don't.

I believe when He brought me to this world, He has created me in a way that I could weather any storm that He intends to lash on me.

I do not need to seek for his help, for my destiny has been carved and I need no more guidance.

I believe that when He wants to help, He would help, and I would receive His guidance.

I believe that my life is a test He gives me.

He is watching how I go through my daily lives, so that He knows what He could do to me when I expire and go back to His side.

If you fear that I would one day forget that He exists, don't worry, I have always treated my presence in this world as the acknowledgement of His existence, for I am His creation.

If you fear I would lose my direction should I continue to refuse guidance, don't worry, God is the answer for everything. Pastors, monks or fathers are humans. I prefer direct contact, so that no communication is severed or misdirected.

I believe He exists. But I do not want to identify who He is.

He will let me know who He is if He wants.

But if He refuses to, I will live my life as a responsible human being, and I will know who He is once I am laid to rest for good, when He needs my service.

So no, I do not profess a religion. I don't need a religion to know how to be a human, nor do I need a religion to understand my responsibility to myself, to my fellow friends, to mother Earth, and to Him.

Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas guys!! May everyone around us continues to prosper, and may your wishes come true!!

Questions To Answer

My friends in university always ask me the same question: What type of girls do you like? Have you not found one you have affection to?

Okay, let me begin by saying something. I have to admit that by choosing to go to Swinburne, I may have landed myself in a totally different world from which I am rightly belong to. I come from a very conservation family, one which tradition is strictly adhered to and breaking one is met with criticism. I have a father who is probably the most antisocial guy you could come across in this universe, and he is a person who not only refuses to accept changes in his routine of many years (since I was born), he is someone who even refuses to even consider having changes, let alone initiating one.

So when I have a different haircut for the first time in my life by ditching my old bald hairstyle and cutting a hairstyle which is no longer round and flat, my father received it with dismay. He could not accept changes, whether it is about him or me. I again come from a family background where social life is rigidly textbook-based. Treating people have to follow textbook. Things are done as in textbook, because my family have very little social contact, or closes themselves in a place where they have no reaching to people of other backgrounds.

I understand this since I was young, and I vow to pull myself out from this deeply rooted family and allow myself to be exposed to whatever world there is, because like it or not, this world is not only about you. You cannot close yourself in a box and refuses to see what's outside, because you don't owe the world. You come to this world, you make your presence noticeable and from that time onward, your life is already entangled with others.

People in Swinburne are mostly rich. I come from a family that was once very poor. And because my parents were very, very poor, I understand why they were treating me this way, and I respect that. But because my parents controlled me too strictly, to the point even now I fear talking something different to them for fear of being criticised, I grew up as a fiercely independent boy.

I am a ferociously independent guy who very rarely relies on my friends. I admit that I very seldom ask for my friends' favour whenever I stumble upon obstacles. I very rarely allow a companion's absence to prohibit me from doing something I wish to do. And because this is how I grew up, I learn to do things in the absence of any companion. And because of this, I don't crave for a partner yet, for now.

This is why I still have no girlfriend.

And because my parents raise me up strictly, and instill me with good discipline and gave me strict upbringing, I have high requirements for the girlfriend I want. The girl I want need not be beautiful or slim (though admittedly, as a boy....hmm), but she must have good characters. A girl that is good at spending money on unnecessary stuffs are out of my list - sadly, my definition of "unnecessary stuff" is extremely, preposterously strict as well - and a girl who lacks independence and maturity are also not my cup of tea. I want a girlfriend who has the independence to think for herself, and someone who has decided that in one's life there needs to be a purpose. I want a girlfriend who knows what she wants for her life, I want a girlfriend who has a goal in her future to achieve, and I want a girlfriend to be my companion and my soulmate, and not become someone who I have to feed. In my opinion, a girl who needs a guy to pay for her meal and buy her stuff is, as stated, a girl. I want a woman, who is mentally sound and physically perfect, is capable of taking care of herself, but needs someone to perfect her life.

And these are my answers to the questions that have been thrown to me throughout the semester.

This type of girl is rare, perhaps already extinct, but I would patiently wait for her to come into my life. I believe it is worth the wait.