Sometimes it just tickles. Life. What is life? It appears simple, and yet so complicated. Life is robust, and yet malleable and fragile. Life is long, and yet so short.
When one ends his life, what happens to him? Does his life span simply meet the end, or does he move on to another place where nobody breathing has ventured? Does spirit really exist? Are apparation genuine or are they simply an easy excuse created by men to explain the happenings after one dies?
I have been oddly sentimental, and therefore I appear to show no emotions but accept all. When one of my friends say they lost their friends in a freak accident, I felt a bit despondent, and suddenly I remembered a friend of mine who died of blood cancer few years ago.
It seems weird to have a memory triggered by another of the same kind.
Her name was Jia Jia. She was a (quite) close friend of mine when I was in primary school. We had been in the same class for about one or two years, and I remembered she was big and awkwardly tall for a girl.
Childhood memory is hard to recall. When we finished UPSR and moved on to secondary school, we parted. She went to JD, while I went to Jit Sin. We had lost contact since.
But then one day, during 2008, a friend of mine told me she had died of blood cancer. I was shocked. I had lost contact with her for two years and yet the news was still a strong bombshell. It appeared sudden to me, to have a friend gone owing to illness. She must have suffered for long before she took in her last breathe.
When I received the news, I was literally sombre for the whole day. Knowing that you have lost a friend is not a knowledge you can easily digest, no matter how close he is to you.
Lesson: Appreciate everyone around you, for you have no knowledge on when they'll leave. Try to do more deeds, for life is short and changes are abrupt. Try to show your love to everyone, for when tragedy happens you'll have no more chances to radiate love to those who you dearly care. Never gamble with your life, for life is not something that's redeemable when it's lost.
Thursday, 24 January 2013
Monday, 21 January 2013
Birthday
January 20th is my birthday. It fell on Sunday this year so I got to stay at home and enjoy my birthday.
As expected, my facebook wall is loaded with birthday wishes. Thank you friends. I am happy with all the wishes.
Firstly, Tungtungfish came back without informing anyone. He met up with me, Min Huang and Jackie on Jusco. It had been a long time since we last met! We chatted for about 2 hours, and I had to leave for my family wanted to bring me out for dinner. Having a chat with friends when you've not met each other for a long time was very warm and exciting. And thank you three of you for remembering my birthday even though there was no indication before the actual date.
My family had a dinner together the night before in Seoul Garden. My mum never went there before and was both curious and excited of having a meal there. Saturday night price was exorbitant, but I guess it was pretty worth it. My father rarely agreed to have a meal at a restaurant, much less one which is incredibly expensive.
My friend, Wei En, suggested to celebrate my birthday while another friend, Yun Sheng, suggested Jusco. I was having a paradoxical feeling: I couldn't sure whether what I felt was indifference or excitement. Indifference was probably my nature. I seldom get emotionally influenced or motivated but yet the notion of celebrating my birthday was pretty exciting because I have not celebrated my birthday with my friends before, partly because I was an extreme introvert and because I never found my birthday a tad enjoying, albeit I couldn't decipher why I never get excited on my birthday despite having none horrible incidence.
So we went to Jusco with another 9 friends. One friend bought me a gift. I decided not to open there because frankly I did not know what was the appropriate response, so I responded by acting like I knew what I should do, and it turned out Bobo and Cian Li bought me a blue bottle! You might think it was an ordinary one, but the reason I am truly touched is because they knew I lost one, and I now they bought me another one in replacement! Thank you guys. Then Kuan Chiet bought me a cheese cake. I was pretty flabbergasted but I accepted it with ebullience. The only bummer that night was that we were seated in different tables for our first meal.
We therefore had a second meal later at McDonald's, where one of them, I couldn't remember who (sorry! ==) sang a birthday song to me and the others did likewise. Thanks Eric, Yun Sheng and Wei En.
It was a small celebration, yet extremely meaningful and memorable.
The next day, Chin Sheng came to my house and delivered me a pack of present with my friends' signature on it. I was sincerely touched because nobody has ever given me anything so beautiful before. Inside the package was a pink t-shirt that was bizarrely neatly folded. Thank you friends.
Thank you guys, my friends, my family, for all the wishes and gifts you have munificently given me. This year birthday was the best ever.
I love you all. =)
As expected, my facebook wall is loaded with birthday wishes. Thank you friends. I am happy with all the wishes.
Firstly, Tungtungfish came back without informing anyone. He met up with me, Min Huang and Jackie on Jusco. It had been a long time since we last met! We chatted for about 2 hours, and I had to leave for my family wanted to bring me out for dinner. Having a chat with friends when you've not met each other for a long time was very warm and exciting. And thank you three of you for remembering my birthday even though there was no indication before the actual date.
My family had a dinner together the night before in Seoul Garden. My mum never went there before and was both curious and excited of having a meal there. Saturday night price was exorbitant, but I guess it was pretty worth it. My father rarely agreed to have a meal at a restaurant, much less one which is incredibly expensive.
My friend, Wei En, suggested to celebrate my birthday while another friend, Yun Sheng, suggested Jusco. I was having a paradoxical feeling: I couldn't sure whether what I felt was indifference or excitement. Indifference was probably my nature. I seldom get emotionally influenced or motivated but yet the notion of celebrating my birthday was pretty exciting because I have not celebrated my birthday with my friends before, partly because I was an extreme introvert and because I never found my birthday a tad enjoying, albeit I couldn't decipher why I never get excited on my birthday despite having none horrible incidence.
So we went to Jusco with another 9 friends. One friend bought me a gift. I decided not to open there because frankly I did not know what was the appropriate response, so I responded by acting like I knew what I should do, and it turned out Bobo and Cian Li bought me a blue bottle! You might think it was an ordinary one, but the reason I am truly touched is because they knew I lost one, and I now they bought me another one in replacement! Thank you guys. Then Kuan Chiet bought me a cheese cake. I was pretty flabbergasted but I accepted it with ebullience. The only bummer that night was that we were seated in different tables for our first meal.
We therefore had a second meal later at McDonald's, where one of them, I couldn't remember who (sorry! ==) sang a birthday song to me and the others did likewise. Thanks Eric, Yun Sheng and Wei En.
It was a small celebration, yet extremely meaningful and memorable.
The next day, Chin Sheng came to my house and delivered me a pack of present with my friends' signature on it. I was sincerely touched because nobody has ever given me anything so beautiful before. Inside the package was a pink t-shirt that was bizarrely neatly folded. Thank you friends.
Thank you guys, my friends, my family, for all the wishes and gifts you have munificently given me. This year birthday was the best ever.
I love you all. =)
Saturday, 19 January 2013
Listen!
Again we have another woman who rose to fame by speaking something incredibly stupid.
First, she rudely interjected a woman's speech in a debate by repeating "listen" ten times. When she bent on finishing her speech, Ms. Listen took away her microphone. When someone intends to voice his opinion, she repeated "let me speak!" an annoying 7 times. She claims to have shown respect to her opponent, yet she patronised her publicly by saying she has very least of pendidikan.
She said we shouldn't compare Malaysia with other countries, and yet she compares humans with animals. Idiotic? I don't think there is a word strong enough to describe how stupid her response is. She, therefore, is slated and being called an animal activist for her apparent fight for it. To her, humans should stop complaining, because animals have so much problems and humans should shut up because we aren't alone.
What if I say she should stop complaining that the public is chastising her, since animals too have problems and she is not alone?
Lesson to be learnt: Think, then speak. Don't speak and embarrass yourself. It's a humiliation to yourself, your family, the organisation you represent, the country, and a laughing joke to the nation. Even UMNO is quit to dissociate themselves from this embarrassment.
It would be interesting how she intends to defend herself. So far, the little known party has done nothing except inciting more flames by insisting they did nothing wrong. Ms Listen in question has yet to personally build a defence, but I believe it won't be a strong one as the anger against her is quite overwhelming.
First, she rudely interjected a woman's speech in a debate by repeating "listen" ten times. When she bent on finishing her speech, Ms. Listen took away her microphone. When someone intends to voice his opinion, she repeated "let me speak!" an annoying 7 times. She claims to have shown respect to her opponent, yet she patronised her publicly by saying she has very least of pendidikan.
She said we shouldn't compare Malaysia with other countries, and yet she compares humans with animals. Idiotic? I don't think there is a word strong enough to describe how stupid her response is. She, therefore, is slated and being called an animal activist for her apparent fight for it. To her, humans should stop complaining, because animals have so much problems and humans should shut up because we aren't alone.
What if I say she should stop complaining that the public is chastising her, since animals too have problems and she is not alone?
Lesson to be learnt: Think, then speak. Don't speak and embarrass yourself. It's a humiliation to yourself, your family, the organisation you represent, the country, and a laughing joke to the nation. Even UMNO is quit to dissociate themselves from this embarrassment.
It would be interesting how she intends to defend herself. So far, the little known party has done nothing except inciting more flames by insisting they did nothing wrong. Ms Listen in question has yet to personally build a defence, but I believe it won't be a strong one as the anger against her is quite overwhelming.
Saturday, 12 January 2013
Beginning of Second Term
School has begun just last week, and now we have just ended our second week of schooling. I guess most of us have yet re-adjust our lives to normal. The first and second week, and maybe the third, are usually the most tiring one because we have to wake up bright and early and spend the whole morning listening to boring teachings and sweating in the class.
Anyway, we are now in the second semester of STPM Baharu. This semester seems to be very rush as we have to study quite a lot within 4 1/2 months, and a good and yet somehow bad news was recently announced: the exam for the second term has been brought forward to 20-23 May. The bright side is that we now have 2 weeks of holidays which we did not have, the dark side would be the short preparation time.
For the second term, I think Mathematics would be the worst for all subjects, while Chemistry would have the most to be studied, and for assessments, PA would be the most tiring because we have a project to complete and nobody has any idea how it should be completed because we are the first batch to be so haplessly given a title so complicated nobody even knows how to start.
I've received my MUET result last week. There are only 6 people who got Band 5 in my school, and I am one of them luckily. I hope STPM result would be as good as this, but I am dubious about that because I performed quite badly last term. Hence, I swear I'll work harder this term to at least scrape through the exam. I sincerely hope I haven't flunked any, but I have no optimism in it.
I guess we'll see about that.
Anyway, we are now in the second semester of STPM Baharu. This semester seems to be very rush as we have to study quite a lot within 4 1/2 months, and a good and yet somehow bad news was recently announced: the exam for the second term has been brought forward to 20-23 May. The bright side is that we now have 2 weeks of holidays which we did not have, the dark side would be the short preparation time.
For the second term, I think Mathematics would be the worst for all subjects, while Chemistry would have the most to be studied, and for assessments, PA would be the most tiring because we have a project to complete and nobody has any idea how it should be completed because we are the first batch to be so haplessly given a title so complicated nobody even knows how to start.
I've received my MUET result last week. There are only 6 people who got Band 5 in my school, and I am one of them luckily. I hope STPM result would be as good as this, but I am dubious about that because I performed quite badly last term. Hence, I swear I'll work harder this term to at least scrape through the exam. I sincerely hope I haven't flunked any, but I have no optimism in it.
I guess we'll see about that.
Tuesday, 8 January 2013
MUET Result
I sat for MUET last November and the result was scheduled to be released today. I was extremely nervous because I have a high expectation for English is a language I love. I know MUET is very hard and has an oddly high standard and strict marking scheme, so I yearn for either a high band 4 or a low band 5. So this is the result I got:
I don't want to complain much on the marks. 220 was the minimum mark to achieve band 5 and it so happened I got 220! If I get one mark lower I'll be dropped to band 4! Thank God!
Anyway, target reached! There's no more words to say, except, for whoever wishes to resit the test, I wish you luck! If I can do it, so can you! We are, after all, the same species. =)
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