Friday 27 February 2015

Optical Illusions?






No matter how I see it, I still see white and gold.

Apparently the world is split into two groups - the majority sees white and gold, while the minority sees black and white.

Science says it's blue and black, and various explanation has been formed but the gist is that it is our retina that is messing with us.

And that science was correct as the person who sees it first hand confirms it's blue and black.

I'm colour blind.

Monday 23 February 2015

Uneventful

What exactly is the purpose of living?

I don't think anyone could actually give a definite answer to that.

Each individual needs to find a concrete answer to that question, so that each individual could live a fulfilling life one finds it worth a living. You only have a life, live it with meaning.

Mine? I've considered myself long past the need to feel accepted. A long of my friends give in to lots of things they do not like doing simply because they want to be a part of a community, or to try something fun.

I don't. When I say I do not want something, I am firm with my decision.

I know what I want and I know to stick to my decision without budging. Some people call it stubborn, I call it determined. Unless, of course, it affects other people. But if it's an individual call affecting only me, I rather call it determined.

I have long lost the feeling to explore. I now want only a stable life and to settle down and have a peaceful life.

I am a weirdo, and I know it, but I love it.

Thursday 19 February 2015

New Template

Hi guys!

I have installed a totally new template and this template is quite a huge change from what I have previously installed.

I will need time to explore the new properties and to make necessary adjustments to ensure it fits me. Haha I have very strict requirements when it comes to something personal.

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year!

Tuesday 17 February 2015

新年

农历新年即将来临,就来个特别的贴吧!破个纪录用华文写篇短文章。

说真的我还真的是很久没用华文写文章了。自从2011年考完SPM后可以说我和华文已经一刀两断,两刀三段。。。无论如何华文仍是我的第一语言,怎么样都好都不能放弃使用。

到目前暂时没有什么新消息好分享。目前做完了工但是也暂时不想写感言。还很累,才喘了几口气。先让哥再休息吧!

明天是除夕。我家今年会过着很不寻常的农历新年。是好是坏也不知是不是好事。到时再决定吧!

先祝福大家农历新年,洋洋得意,学业蒸蒸日上,马到成功,身体健康,垃圾食物少吃些,注意健康!红包有多请分享,少的记得别跟我拿!感恩。

Tuesday 10 February 2015

Sodomy II

I am glad I did not choose to study law, because judiciary in Malaysia is officially dead.

It is hardly surprising that the Federal Court ruled in favour of our government, because as far as I know, the Federal Court has never disappointed them.

It beats me to understand how Anwar, who was convicted of Sodomy but acquitted, would after a few months again sodomised Saiful in an apartment.

Nobody is that stupid to commit an offence like that when they know it is a political tool played by the ruling government to topple him.

I never have confidence in the Federal Court, and right now I see no reason why I ever should.

On February 10, 2015, the Federal Court finds Anwar guilty of sodomising Mohd Saiful, affirming the decision of the Court of Appeal.

Sending Anwar to gaol strengthens Pakatan, and it will unite Malaysians better.

Malaysians will rise, and Malaysia will improve. Justice may be extinct, but it will be resurrected.

Friday 6 February 2015

To Love and To Hate

I won't bother to deny that being a teacher, you are bound to be hated by your students, and likewise there are students you are bound to hate.

I have students I hate - two of them, but they are the way they are because of family problems (family neglect, I presume) and therefore I just avoid them instead of attacking them. If it arises due to family problems I will refrain from meddling.

There was however one class I hate with every fibre of my being. I scolded that class many times for refusing to cooperate. Strictly speaking cooperation was not supposed to be allowed, when I shouldn't have tolerated with their refusal to abide by simple rule: do not disturb a lesson.

So I scolded them. So many times to one point I actually told them I do not like them. I didn't use the word 'hate', but I had the strongest urge to. Luckily I suppressed it from being spoken out.

And this year they accused me of practising double standard. They say I favoured the front class and didn't treat them well. In my defence, I was the form teacher of the front class, I am bound to favour the class over any classes. It's my class.

Secondly, they cooperated with me. They did not disturb my lesson. They handed in their home work in time. And they treated me well. In response, I reciprocate by treating them equally well.

The people who criticised me. Well, you did not cooperate with me. You constantly disturbed my lesson making me unable to have smooth lesson. You did not hand in my home work and only gave them in when I threatened to send you all to discipline. And you ignored my presence and treated the classroom as if it's yours when instead you are only given the classroom to have a proper lesson. I had continually said if you did not want to listen to my lessons, you are free to sleep in the class or do your work. My only condition in my class is to keep quiet and do not disturb my lecture. If you remain silent, I don't really care what you do. Kneading, drawing, whatever you like.

Tell me what reason I have to not love the front class more?

And you accuse me of double standard? Go reflect yourself, what makes you think you are not at all to be blamed?


Sunday 1 February 2015

Opinions

A job truly exposes one to an infinite number of experience one could not ever possibly imagine. Being a teacher it allows me to see the life in school from a completely different prospective. Previously I grew up as a student and living in secondary school was really pleasant and full with joy. It was so far the best thing that has happened in my life but I would not deny that are moments I despise about being a student. I hated some of the disciplinary measures and rules taken by the school, whether it is directed under the ministry or not, and I hated co-curriculum activities - all of them - and I detest the number of workload, the humid hot weather at certain time of the year that makes the classroom stuffy and the day uncomfortable, the lecture for the whole morning and the listlessness I felt for the whole day due to extreme tiredness and lack of time to rest. I hated a lot of things but overall all of them is easily ignored due to the incredibly amount of joy I had experienced in schools and all the fun I had with my friends.

Right now being a teacher I know how it feels like to be a teacher and how the different society in a school co-mingle with another society to make the school an interesting population. Being teacher is actually busy and just as tiring as students. 70% of the work a teacher does, I dare say, is paperwork irrelevant to the students. Writing teaching plans even though we know it's useless but only because it is the directive of the ministry. Preparing paperwork for the students' activities in which they have no authority or autonomy to write yet. Finding the most economical way to assist the students in finding the best trainers for co-curriculum, keying in students data in websites required by government but inaccessible to the students, understanding how the marking scheme works and what it requires to help students who are largely disinterested in knowing them because they have yet to understand the severity of the ground, learning to teach a subject one is not trained to teach, trying to control a class of recalcitrant and rebellious students while rushing to finish syllabus in time....lots more.

There is something worth looking at. Teachers, being as busy as students, too love the students to give space and cooperate for the lessons to go smoothly. Students, being tired, too would often hope the teachers stop teaching at certain points and allow the students to rest and sleep whenever possible. I was there, I know listening teachers teaching the entire morning is downright tiring. But teachers have a work to do, they have responsibilities to shoulder and they have people to answer to if they are deemed to have failed their responsibilities. And therefore it is impossible for a teacher to satisfy all the students' wish. But, as Newton's third law rightly states, every action has a reaction. It is also impossible for students to meet the teachers requirements due to a multitude of complicated reasons.

It is in my observation that often a teacher crosses path with a student at the most busy and stressful time in a day, and vice versa. Often heated conversation and conflict arises because a teacher and a student could not cooperate and reach a consensus to allow a lesson to go on smoothly. It is true a student ought to listen to the teacher, but in my book in some occasion a teacher could give space and tolerate with the students. I understand what the teacher fails - we do not know the students, we do not know whether he has the independence and maturity to understand the severity of the consequences if he does not pay attention and do his homework, and therefore for the student's best interest we assume he does not and we begin to lecture them that they have to work hard and give them telling that it is time for them to study.

But being a student, there simply are times they need a break. After all they have lots of subjects to study and all the subjects and knowledge are new to them and it takes time to digest. Perhaps in the previous lesson he has been thrown a complicated question and that while fathoming it he got so tired he simply could no longer listen the next lesson. Exacerbated by the fact that there are lots of co-curriculum activities and perhaps house chores to deal with at home, there are many things to balance and many things to be done. It is in my opinion that a teacher could at times understand the students' position to employ the best approach to assist them.

Likewise a student ought to put themselves in a teacher's shoes sometimes. Sometimes a teacher simply has too many paperwork to do that they got so busy they forgot a lot of things. Sometimes they are frustrated and support the students in many instances but are often silenced or fear to voice as being a worker under the school and the government, there really is not much room for voice to be spoken or be heard. Often a teacher has to control and suppress a few students for the best interest of those who wish to have a peaceful lesson. There are way too many things to be considered and to be taken care of.

Being a teacher and in the past, a student allows me to see a lot of things from the positions of both students and teachers. I think it is time for both parties to attempt to put themselves in each other's shoes and try a different solution to a similar event. Of course I do not agree that being a student, being recalcitrant is a nature. If a student behaves badly, it is the duty of the teachers to educate. Teachers are humans and therefore fallible, and there are times a teacher could be wrong and it is best that students do not get too arrogant in handling disciplinary issues. If a student is embroiled in fighting, take disciplinary issues sternly and strictly but at the same times, trying to understand the very root of the problem is helpful too. Telling them to only control their anger and not repeat the action is only a short term solution. I understand it is not easy to change someone as I have seen first hand, but to continue to suppress and ignore isn't a bright choice either.

Teachers and students, complicated living beings to live.