Writing

Ever feel bored? Sometimes, entertainment and fun are snatched away, and you're left with only a blank sheet of life so dull you're wondering what you should do with it. That's life. Life's full with ups and down. If there's lack of one then it's very likely your life has been a total chaos and a complete boredom. The ups are satisfying, entertaining, sweet, lovable while the downs are downright annoying and hated. Yet you can't deny - they are important, for they colour your life.

But here's the deal - while you experience ups and downs, they should balance and cancel each other out, no matter in what frequency they transpire. You can have 100 downs in a day, but there'll be 100 compensations for that. Huge or small, let the faith decide, but it's probable that your downs have been compensated without your knowing.

Why am I writing this? I don't know. Well, I'm not filled with unexplained surge of emotions. Ya, I was kinda bothered last night, but today I'm fine. I'll try to be fine anyway. The problem is, I'm bored. Yup - unlike most people of my age, I hate long holidays. One week or two, that's amazing. More than that, holiday is annoying.

I don't socialise the way most people do. What interests I have is completely different from others. I have never been up to date. Technology and automobile are two things I am severely lagged behind of. Don't ask me what iPhone is, because I don't know, I don't wanna know and I don't care. I don't see cars. I can't even identify the cars that are choking the traffic. Owing to that, I share almost no similar topics with my peers. They might enjoy themselves reviewing the latest technologies or games, but I'll just sit at the side listening to what they say and pretending I understand. 

But no worries, that's not what bothering me. I have no desire to be up to dated on those stuffs because I don't find them a need in our daily lives. I don't take photos on a daily basis, and I don't get banged by car and asked to identify them often. So, no, I will take no attempt to change that, unless the situation warrants it. That's me, and perhaps this is where I'm different. 

I indulge in activities that are practically boring but, when the outcome is obtained, it's satisfying. What stuffs, if you wonder? Anything productive. I can't exactly pinpoint those works. Working is one, ya, albeit it is downright boring and the process and routine are a huge murder, but the notion of getting your salary, and the moment you finally get it, is rewarding and sweet. There's where I find satisfactions - accomplishments, but perhaps in a different view from the others. Most people derive satisfactions from winning a competition, but I don't. Not majorly anyway. 

Everybody's different. I'm no exception. Everyone of us contains a uniqueness not shared by the others. I've got a friend whose love for Mathematics is undying, and you just couldn't understand how he manages to play with that jargon for such a long time and not falling to it. I've got a friend whose flame of love of sports never die off and could keep burning even if he's totally wiped out. I've got a friend who has a patience of a saint and will never go berserk no matter how you annoy him. There are more, almost countless. 

But if you were to ask me how am I different, I would be left perplexed. It is very ironic how a person could easily analyse other people's personality and compartmentalise them into different sections, but yet fail to do the same for himself. Perhaps we often generalise a person's behaviour and make it seem as we understand how each of our friends act, but appearance deceive and his true behaviour might be concealed and remain a confounding secret that is never meant to be unravelled.

God is fair. He makes our society special by making sure that's not too many overlapping interests among the people He created. And we should thank Him, for He has painted our life with such mesmerising colours. Like everything else, balancing is the key. Ups and downs need to be balanced, so are good and evil, and therefore you'll never find a society where there's an overwhelming greatness or only ups. If the society consists of only goods, then the society itself is imperfect, as perfectness itself is a flaw.

Everybody is different, and I believe we should be able to identify what and where. Have you? If you haven't, try to. Understanding yourself is part of growing up, although it would be very challenging as you might find yourself constantly changing. 

Because that's life. Life always changes.