Merry Christmas!

It seems like only a few weeks ago that I posted the last Christmas wish, and here I am now, one year later, posting another post for the 22nd Christmas I have ever got to experience. 2016 is about to end, and a new year is ushering in and somehow I just realise that time is really flying at breakneck speed. I ain't sure whether it's a good thing or a bad one - because the consensus is that if you think time really flies, it means you've lived a meaningful and eventful life while if you think time goes by slowly, it probably means you aren't enjoying your life and you probably are suffering. What I do know is that there are way too many things that I want to do, and I never have the opportunity to do all of them because of time constraints. I only have approximately 2 years left before I become fully committed to a permanent job - and that notion of being responsibility-bound terrifies me more than anything else. More than possibly leading a single life to death without anyone to turn to when I got frail and weak and needing care at old age (I have been thinking whether leading a single/girlfriend-free life is something that I want, because getting a girlfriend - which is what most guys in my age is doing - isn't something I want, isn't even in my priority list to begin with). But one thing I am sure - I enjoy my life at the moment. And I guess that is all that matters now. Merry Christmas guys!

Lady Gaga - Million Reasons

I've never exactly loved a singer, but this is an amazing singer it's hard for me to overlook.

Lady Gaga's songs are always emotional, as her songs are based on her life experience and thus the emotion displayed is always authentic and sometimes relatable. She has true voice and a true talent in singing. Yes, she had questionable ethnics, but now she's back to normal (pre-crazy Paparazzi's Lady Gaga) and she is showing the world she can shine bright without being quirky.

Great song as always Lady Gaga!

周深 《身騎白馬》

I really thought it was a lady. ==



Amazing!!!!

Seriously questioning my choice

Day by day I question my choice of choosing civil engineering.

Look, it's not that I hate civil engineering. I pretty love it. The design and the analysis of a structure is extremely tiring, but to watch all your efforts become something concrete and deliverable is exceedingly rewarding and I love it.

But there's a lack of passion.

I just don't love civil engineering as much as I love a language.

Back in 2014, I was in a dilemma. Before I officially enrolled myself into a university, I had seriously questioned myself what choice I want. The problem I was facing was the fact that I liked two distinctive subjects that do not often overlap - I love English, and yet simultaneously I love mathematics.

I like something invoking soul searching, but at the same time, I equally love doing something that gave my brain some squeezing and twisting.

I'm sentimental. I'm expressive and I am emotional to a fault. I wouldn't deny them. My sentimental personality allows me to write. Everytime I read a good article with perfect English and sound arguments, I had the motivation to make my English improve more. I just love writing. It's an expression nobody can rob away from you.

And sometimes, words can be much more powerful than every other things combined.

But I also like Maths. If I am doing Maths, I can go on for hours without rest, foregoing eating and drinking simply because I am so absorbed into Maths I have become completely impervious to what has happened around me.

Now that I'm studying Civil Engineering, I realise, while I love engineering, I don't love it as much as I love English.

My heart and soul is not with engineering. It's with writing. Because writing allows my soul to run free. It allows my emotions to take control of me (but within appropriate constraints) and it makes me feel human.

Sometimes engineering is just so technical and formulae-based, that it doesn't make me feel human.

I don't know. And to say the truth I am afraid of pondering it further.

What I do now is that, if time and finance allow, I would love to study English as well. I would love to be a part-time journalist.

At the same time, my sentimental side actually makes me love to engage in public activities - I like talking to a group of people (provided I am allowed to speak what I want, presentations are not one of them), I like to help people, and I find it rewarding to be able to contribute to people in need.

Engineering is not bad. I realise a bit too late now that it isn't my greatest passion, but I also recognise that I can no longer change my decision.

I'll find a way to carve through. I have acknowledged that I must accept what is burning inside me - a passion to write, a passion to be contributable to the society, and a passion to be someone influential.

They are my dreams. And I vow to reach them.

莉莉代課篇

Departing from previous post's mood, let's have a laugh at NOWEPO's creativity.

You should be concerned

You don't have to be obsessed with politics, but you must know what is happening.

Maria Chin Abdullah has been arbitrarily arrested and held in solitary confinement under a law meant for terrorism (stupid government can try to fool us that it isn't meant for terrorism) because apparently they found evidence that she intended to commit activities that are detrimental to parliamentary activities.

There are a few things this stupid government has to know

1) Democracy in Malaysia means people get to elect their leaders. Like it or not, you did not get the majority vote - you got less than 50%. Meaning the majority in Malaysia did not choose you. You cling on to your pathetic seat because of the unfair system. So don't you dare tell us to respect the majority decision - the majority did not choose you

2) Election in Malaysia is held based on democracy. Malaysians do not democratically elect a leader to be a dictator for five years. Whenever the people are dissatisfied of you and are pissed off, you need to go. Don't give all sorts of bullsh*t that says if people are dissatisfied, people have to channel their anger through proper channel. We are your boss, because we get to decide who sit at your place. So don't dare instruct us what to do.

3) You are a servant to the country. You don't owe Malaysia and you certainly don't owe us. You don't get to tell us how to lead a life. If we are unhappy of you, we get to voice it out, and you must listen, because your fate depends on us.

And for those idiots who say "politics is something stupid" and refuse to give a sh*t about all these

You have the right to ignore the political development in Malaysia. That's your right.

But, if you choose to give up your right to know the political situations in Malaysia, whenever

• our stupid government flip-flop our education system, do not complain. You chose not to be concerned.
• our Malaysian Ringgit plummets to historic low in decades because of poor governmental policy and increasing autocratic politics, do not complain. You chose not to defend our democracy by keeping silent.
• those who defend us got put in jail and there's no one who is capable to lead in the next election, do not complain. You chose not to defend them in return when they are unfairly arrested.
• there is poor execution and enforcement of law, and there are plenty of judicial conflicts, do not complain. You chose not to be concerned about what laws the parliaments are enacting, and you did not protest.
• you get affected by whatever new policies, do not complain. You chose not to be concerned

You don't have to be obsessed, but please be aware of what is happening.

Malaysia needs us. And we need each other.

Maria Chin Abdullah is a recipient of an international human rights award. She fought for Malaysians, and yet she is being confined and arrested as a terrorist simply because she is against BN. She has done a lot for us, the least we could do is to show our support.

Lim Guan Eng, Zunar, Rafizi too have done a lot of things for Malaysians. PKR Rafizi exposed governmental documents that are concealed because he believed those documents are evidence of a guilty act committed by the powerful, and yet he is thrown in jail because he did what is in the best interest of Malaysia.

Political oppression has got to stop. Please wake up, and do something.

To show some concern is the least you can do as a Malaysian, as whatever happens in Malaysia will affect you eventually.

Bersih 5.0

I can't be there because I am otherwise engaged, but it doesn't mean I don't care about my country. When the country is topsy-turvy, then the people go out to the street to protest. People don't protest if things are well - we aren't that free. Najib has to realise that democracy doesn't work only once a year. Anytime between elections, if the people are dissatisfied with you, you must step down. You aren't elected democratically to be an autocrat for five years. You're a disgrace to the country. The crackdown on the organisers and opposition leaders are cowardly, uncalled-for, and shining signs of desperation to cling on power. GE14 will come soon. You can't hide for long. Another batch of pro-Opposition are coming, and you shall be toppled in the next election. The change is close. And we are winning.