March

It's now March, the fourth month since I'd completed my STPM.

Right now I am quite troubled by where I should go. While I do feel a bit excited to go overseas, I am somewhat lazy to go through the necessary procedures to realise my dream. This ultimately makes me realise I never want to go overseas as much as I've dreamt of, because if I do really want to go overseas I wouldn't bother the troubling procedures.

So, obviously overseas ain't my choice now as I am lazy to apply, and I really ain't that excited to go. Apparently my excitement to go overseas can't be compensated by eradicating my laziness. So, just stay at home.

Where should I go?

Local universities, obviously.

But what course?

Maths is my forte, and my strongest subject so far. Engineering sounds good, and is now my top choice.

But I am quite reluctant to give up English. Learning English is my passion, and I can study English when there's no exams, and this is not the case for Maths.

But then what can an English major do? And even if I study English, my English would never be on par with those who speak it as a first language. Like the Americans, British, or even Singaporeans, for I do not have the environment and culture to learn the language.

Troubling.